WELCOME BACK…? (Part 3)
<<Catch up by reading Part 1 HERE… or Part 2 HERE…>>
Small businesses face an uphill battle from day one, with the average small business failing within the first five years. In some instances, it can be as short as three years. The impact of a global pandemic means that a lot of businesses won’t survive the next few months, let alone see out the rest of 2020, especially small businesses.
I’d be lying if I said that I haven’t been keeping an eye out for job advertisements. I have a jobs app that keeps sending me notifications about roles that become available, and as tempting as it is to start applying for jobs, it makes me feel guilty for even thinking about abandoning my own business to go work in somebody else’s. Being back in lockdown has allowed me time to regroup and refocus on my business. Well, technically, I used it as an opportunity to work on a secondary business, (but that’s a separate story of it’s own). I needed to utilise this time to focus on WXW and make an attempt to breathe some life back into it, and start developing something that I essentially changed my entire life to pursue. It would be foolish to get to this point and just throw my hands in air and say ‘fuck it… I’m done here’ and walk away from it all.
“It’s better to have tried and failed, than to live life wondering what would’ve happened if I had tried”
– Alfred Lord Tennyson.
I cannot sit by any longer and continue to wonder what would’ve happened if I had tried. I have already wasted so much time, ideas and so many opportunities because my own self-doubt got in the way, and I can’t keep doing that any more. There’s already enough regret for not committing to my own business 100% from the very beginning, and in a way, going back into lockdown is something that I see as a golden opportunity to focus and commit on both my businesses.
I can’t allow myself to spend another day feeling guilty about not being active in my business.
I can’t allow myself to continue to let my own self-doubt and insecurities and imposter syndrome railroad me every step along the way. It’s time to flip that and start trusting my instincts a lot more, and actually embrace the role of small business owner.
I need to get back in the game (again, #sports), and just start trying things; start creating and writing and see what happens. If it fails, it fails, and I’ll learn from it for the next attempt. At least you’ll have a front row seat to it. It could be great, or it could all go up in flames… stay tuned.
Time to try this all again.
Hi, my name is Josh. Welcome (back) to WORK BY WILMS.